There are days on the spiritual journey that feel anything but peaceful.
Even after learning, knowing, and practicing all the beautiful truths—
That we are spiritual beings having a human experience.
That everyone around us is a reflection.
That our triggers are teachers.
That peace comes from surrender, not resistance.
That we can choose meaning, and with it, our response.
Even then… we struggle.
I’ve had those moments—and today was one of them.
When the house feels heavy with misalignment.
When conversations turn into conflict.
When nothing I do seems to make a difference.
When I ask myself: Is it them, or is it me? Why is this so hard?
I know the philosophies. I’ve lived the wisdom.
But knowing doesn’t always silence the storm inside.
And when you’re trying so hard to hold space for love, truth, and harmony—
but it feels like no one hears you…
It can feel like you’re unraveling.
The Frustration of Growth
The deeper I go on this path, the more layers I uncover.
It’s beautiful—and it’s exhausting.
I used to think I would one day arrive—at peace, at understanding, at spiritual maturity.
But I’ve come to realize that this path keeps asking for more:
More honesty.
More humility.
More letting go.
And some days, that “more” feels like too much.
When Silence Becomes a Sanctuary
There are moments I feel I have no more strength to try, explain, or fix.
So I choose silence—not out of bitterness, but out of self-preservation.
Sometimes, silence becomes my only way of holding myself together.
It’s the kind of silence that says:
I am protecting my energy.
I still care. But I need space.
I cannot carry this all right now.
Sometimes, silence is a sacred act of love—for yourself and others.
A Prayer for Clarity
In moments like these, I ask:
God, Source, Higher Self—show me the way.
Not just for peace in my home, but peace in my heart.
Help me hold compassion without losing my center.
Help me love without abandoning myself.
Help me let go without closing off.
Help me remember: this, too, is part of the journey.
For Anyone Feeling the Same
If you’re reading this and it resonates—please know you’re not alone.
Being spiritual doesn’t mean being perfect.
Being aware doesn’t mean you’ll never feel pain again.
It just means you’re willing to keep showing up…
With honesty. With love. With grace for yourself, too.
Wherever you are in this moment, I honor your path.
And I hope, like me, you’ll keep going—one breath, one choice, one prayer at a time.
With love and reflection,
– Prakriti
